I'm a Survivor

 IT'S OK TO BE ABOUT ME SOMETIMES:

I have to say it has been so different to have it about me again for a bit. To have a program etc for ME and not one of the kids.  It is a little weird I have to say.

It is all about balance right?  I have 3 kids, one that will be in 7th grade next year and two toddlers that I am with during the day.  Sometimes it is all about them.  And thats okay, I mean that is why I had them right?  I have to feed them and keep them entertained etc and I love it to be honest.  But sometimes as a Mom we put ourselves last, right?  

So I'm kind of excited.  It isn't selfish, it is taking care of myself.  This will be showing them a great example.  We are all eating more healthy as a result.

Right now there are lots of fruits and veggies in my fridge and we are actually EATING them, they aren't just sitting there rotting for me to throw away in a week (not that I ever do that ha ha ha).

We aren't perfect, but we are making progress.  Lots of chicken and veggies.  Fruit etc.  It is AWESOME.  Did I have a rolo today?  Yes I did.  I also ate one Oreo.  But that is okay.  I'm not going to sweat it.  I want to make sure to eat healthy like 90% of the time.  That is realistic.  Nobody (except athletes and trainers only eat eggs, chicken, and vegetables all day and nothing else).

I want to be a good example to my kids.  Most importantly to be a good person and be kind, but also to be healthy so we are there for each other.

Sammi likes to roller skate and she just went ice skating recently.  Even though I am not 500 pounds anymore people, I am not at ice skating level, right?  I did try to roller skate like a year ago and I ended up at Urgent Care.  YIKES.

I WANT TO PLAY SOCCER AGAIN.  

I WANT TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL AGAIN.  Like there are pick up games at the rec center.  HOW FREAKIN' COOL WOULD THAT BE!

I AM A SURVIVOR:

I am sitting here watching survivor and I freaking love this show.  

Since I've been thinking about my past more as of late and how it shaped who I am, I realize, I am a survivor.  

Look at these pics of me before surgery.  That is so crazy to look back at.  

I am so proud that I am not 480 pounds anymore.  

BUT I'M READY TO GET TO 180 NOW.  

It's happening people!

I CAN DO THIS!